I always disappoint my parents. I feel like I want to die. I know that they are not happy having a child like ME. It’s so sad. I’m selfish, self-centered, hard-headed, useless and STUPID. I HATE my parents for being so strict. They really have high hopes when it comes to my studies. They want GOOD GRADES but I study in a University where every lesson just keeps on getting difficult every day. I’m really pressured by the aura that school gives me plus the pressure of my parents, I really have the feeling of liking death. I’m also getting tired of the fake smiles people around give me. I always feel that I’m being hated because of my FANGIRL personality. Many people get annoyed, I know. It’s so hard to hide my fangirl side since it’s the only thing that makes me happy every once in a while. In spite of the haters, I continue to show who I really am. There is this one saying, “when people you don’t even know hate you, it’s when you know YOU ARE BEST!”
Despite that saying, I STILL don’t think myself as superior to others, not even to the tiniest thing in this world. It has always been in my mind that I’m inferior to people. I’m a WEAKLING. A WISHY-WASHY PERSON LIKE MYSELF DOESN’T EVEN HAVE THE GUTS TO STAND OUT. I DARE NOT. I’LL ALWAYS BE IN MISERY.
Some time ago I was feeling the same, I think...when you write this I was in the same position, I feel sorry because i did't read this before, maybe we could support each other.
ReplyDeleteActually I'm feeling better, because I let all that sad feelings in the past. I don't think in what other people want for me, is just about what I want for myself I don't want to disappoint anyone, what I want is the most important
thank you so much for ur support! <3
DeleteI'll always remember this~
Arigatou ne. :)