HATERS are BITCHES & WITCHES !

I’m in the midst of reviewing for my Philosophy1 exam on Tuesday, but eventually, those f*cking, ef*ing, and irritating HATERS just passed through my head that caused me to do this blog.  Just this morning, I checked out my fan videos on Youtube (how many already the views, the likes & dislikes and comments are). What I found out while reading some of the comments was IMMENSELY MADDENING!

There were these TWO PERSONS (he/she who should not be named) who commented on one of my FanVids. I was really ANGRY reading their BASHING about Yuri Chinen (an IDOL whom I love and care the MOST).

the bashing comments (>.<)
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Holy sh*t! Those witches don’t have the right to say that to my dear Chinen.  They’re so mean! Honestly, I really wanted to disagree and fight back but since I know that Chinen & Hey!Say!JUMP (and other JE boys) don’t like fans that are TROUBLESOME, I JUST ZIPPED MY MOUTH.

But then again, IF THOSE JUDGEMENTAL and WICKED bitches still keep on criticizing Chinen ENDLESSLY… then the rope of my PATIENCE will certainly BREAK. I’ll fight back for sure!

I’LL STAND UP FOR CHINEN NO MATTER WHAT! I KNOW HE DOESN’T GIVE A DAMN ABOUT ME, BUT I CARE A DAMN ABOUT HIM!!!  I LOVE HIM SO SO MUCH THAT I GET HURT TOO WHEN SOME PEOPLE SAY HARSH THINGS ABOUT HIM!!!  >.<

Just in case you’re a Chinen fan like me and you want to check out my FanVid, you’re free to watch it ne~ 

Ps: I wrote this last Sunday but due to many school works, I only had a chance to post this now >.<

Also, at this moment, I don’t already have any grudge against those commentators. :))

Yuri, Please take me FARAWAY

Another fan video again that I made out of agony.

This was really weeks ago since I made and uploaded this on Youtube.

And as usual, Yuri Chinen is the content. Every day I just realize how much discrepancies we have in life, in my BITTER DREAMFUL LIFE. Every day, the distance is always SO FARAWAY. He’s REALLY my OUT OF REACH DREAM.

Even if LIFE ALWAYS GETS HARD on me, my feelings for him just keep on stronger and STRONGER as time passes by. I’M INLOVE WITH HIM and ALWAYS WILL BE.

Chinen’s Girl-look-alike (just a short quick post)

Ohgo Suzuka 

kirei deshou? :D

I just happened to search this girl over the internet. She’s so BEAUTIFUL, right?

OFC she SHOULD BE PRETTY because her face has resemblance to Yuri Chinen’s <3

HAHAHAHA :DDDD

I've first seen this photo in a Chinese Microblog. Since it’s a cutie little girl that really looked like young Chinen, I saved it on my lappy and made it as my profile picture on Facebook. I really didn't have any idea who’s this baby girl until my friend Keina commented on the photo. She said it was the girl from Memoirs of Geisha. Out of curiosity, I searched the child actresses that were in the drama. And the name, “OHGO SUZUKA” came out. I searched pictures of her in google and OH MY GOSH, SHE’S DEFINITELY CHINEN’S GIRL-LOOK-ALIKE!!!

Umika cho kawaii!

I have always thought that UMIKA KAWASHIMA is the ultimate GIRL VERSION of Chinen but NOW, I found someone who steal the NO.1  SPOT. ^_^

Ohgo and Umika are BOTH KAWAII and KIREI ne?

Sometimes I wonder if Chinen likes their type. Huhuhu. This is starting to hurt.

well, KAWAII GUYS ARE SUITABLE FOR KAWAII GIRLS, agree?

This definitely HURTS on my side. Hahaha T.T (*laughs then starts to cry*) 

They're so NICE I'm gonna LOVE them EVEN MORE

I’m so happy right now! This happiness is really an inexplicable one. I have new found FanGirl FRIENDS and I’m loving THEM so SO MUCH! They are really nice which makes my depression about college life be gone. They are six but I’m having a CLOSER relationship with only the three of them. I’m hoping that the others can also be much closer to me at the right time. I’ll introduce these cute girls one by one :DDD

First is Chiara pronounced as Ki-ya-ra. At first, I was really intimidated to talk to her. We are classmates in recitation class of one of our DevCom (Development Communication) series that is DEVC 50 (Science Communication). From her outside appearance, she’s really someone I couldn’t approach and had a friendly conversation with. I just didn’t know why but that was my impression. There came a time that we were grouped by our Professor. Chiara and I incidentally became groupmates. At first, we only talked about anything project-related but we never talked about anything besides that. Honestly, I couldn’t remember how we ended up talking about anime, one of my interests. When I had to sleep over at Chiara’s place because of our group project, we had a little bonding when we watched KOIZORA (Sky of Love). It was really a heart-warming Japanese drama which I’ve watched second time already during my sleep over. Chiara really liked it which made me glad. She flailed over Haruma Miura’s handsomeness. HAHAHA xDD

Haruma Miura <3

Next morning we woke up early at 6 even though we stayed late at night doing our project. Because our class will start at 11am that day and because we were still lazy to get out of bed, we decided to watch some YamaChii fanvideos.  <3 <3 <3 I’m not REALLY EXPECTING that Chiara will FALL IN LOVE with my favorite OTP (Original True Pairing). Normal people will go EEWWW (disgusted) seeing a boy-to-boy relationship so I was really shocked looking at Chiara’s enthusiastic face. Since YamaChii is a couple that consists of SUPER CUTE (mecha kawaii!!!) guys named Yuri Chinen and Ryosuke Yamada, Chiara was really attracted to their SWEETNESS with each other. I was really genuinely HAPPY with her reaction at that time because she appreciated the boys, OUR BOYS. HAHAHAHA xDD

YamaChii OTP (rabu rabu!)

Chiara has now become a FANGIRL of Yuri Chinen and Ryosuke Yamada, and MOST OF ALL, the YamaChii OTP :D  Initially, she was really confused who she liked MORE between Chinen and Yamada. She liked them BOTH originally but NOW I think she grew up more FEELING OF LIKENESS to Yamada <3 She said she would never get tired of watching and looking at Yamada even if he’s a camera-whore. HAHAHAHA xDDDDD

Yey! He won Chiara's heart! :))

I’M IN FULL BLISS NOW, NOW THAT I MET SOMEONE LIKE CHIARA. I know that she’s someone who understands my feelings about the fandom I choose to LOVE. She’s one of the VERY FEW people whom I value that supports my interest, JAPAN LOVE. I LOVE YOU Chiara for being always NICE to ME, for being a FANGIRL and for BEING A FRIEND! :D <3

I really don’t care about outward appearances when making friends but Chiara is so PRETTY, ne? :3

Next post will be FOR JENAILE and JELAINE. Yeah, each other’s name has some letter alterations of the other. And that is because, THEY’RE TWINS, very CUTE twins! :DDD

Kinda SLEEPY now. It’s already already 12:41am.

Until next time!

Miserable Life

I always disappoint my parents. I feel like I want to die. I know that they are not happy having a child like ME. It’s so sad. I’m selfish, self-centered, hard-headed, useless and STUPID. I HATE my parents for being so strict. They really have high hopes when it comes to my studies. They want GOOD GRADES but I study in a University where every lesson just keeps on getting difficult every day. I’m really pressured by the aura that school gives me plus the pressure of my parents, I really have the feeling of liking death. I’m also getting tired of the fake smiles people around give me. I always feel that I’m being hated because of my FANGIRL personality. Many people get annoyed, I know. It’s so hard to hide my fangirl side since it’s the only thing that makes me happy every once in a while. In spite of the haters, I continue to show who I really am. There is this one saying, “when people you don’t even know hate you, it’s when you know YOU ARE BEST!”

Despite that saying, I STILL don’t think myself as superior to others, not even to the tiniest thing in this world. It has always been in my mind that I’m inferior to people. I’m a WEAKLING. A WISHY-WASHY PERSON LIKE MYSELF DOESN’T EVEN HAVE THE GUTS TO STAND OUT. I DARE NOT. I’LL ALWAYS BE IN MISERY. 

I Support and Love Ryutaro Morimoto

note: If you are going to watch this, please PAUSE the music in my music box on the left side of this page so that you can ENJOY watching the FANVID :))

I made a fanvid because I think this is the least I can do to support Ryutaro Morimoto. I'm a JUMP fan and obviously, Yuri Chinen is my ichiban but I also love the other members more than I suppose to. I don't want my most favorite JANIZU/JPOP group to be incomplete. THEY SHOULD BE TEN and ONLY TEN.
Ryutaro is my 4th favorite and I always look forward on seeing him in their performances, concerts, shows etc. He should be back SOON, I hope and pray. I, together with the JUMP fandom, will support and wait for you even if takes FOREVER. That's what I will believe from now on.
GANBATTE Ryutaro!!!

Love lots,
chiRina :))